My house feels weird. There’s only two out of three children here, and it just feels – odd. You know that feeling when there is something you think you should have remembered, but you just can’t figure it what it is? It’s kind of like that. I’ve never had occasion to use the word discombobulated before, but I think it sums up my feelings perfectly. Yep, definitely discombobulated.
Obviously there’s quite a lot of occasions when we don’t have the full complement in the house – they have playdates, and clubs, and school – but generally speaking, come 7pm or so, they’re all here. Driving me nuts at that point, sure. Still, they are here. But last night and tonight, my biggest boy has been away on an adventure trip with school. He’s getting the chance to do some amazing activities, and I know it will be good for his confidence, and I’m sure he’s having a brilliant time. And WAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH.
It’s not so much that I’m missing him, exactly – though I am. It’s not that this is the longest I’ve ever gone without at least speaking to him on the phone. It’s not even that he is being let loose on activities like gorge walking and rock climbing and night time mountain trips – my sensible head tells me these are all brilliant fun things for an 8 year old, while my slightly neurotic head (the louder of the two, usually) is yelling ‘DANGER! and has all manner of warning lights going off….
It’s not any of those things.
Unpicking it a bit, I think it’s fear. Fear that it’s all going too fast. Fear that this is the first of many times when our team of five has to play as four. And then three. And then just two….I’m quite sure this sounds melodramatic, and perhaps it is, just a teensy bit. But it feels like last week that I had my first baby. Last WEEK. And now he is nearly Nine. Years. Old. So by my reckoning, next week he’ll be eighteen. Holy crap. And – once again – WAAAAAAAAAAH.
Does anyone else feel like this? Or is it just me?
*shuffles off to be discombobulated all alone in a corner*
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I think we get that. I cannot believe that Pip will be off to school in September! Sometimes it really feels like she’s barely more than a baby…though that it usually when she’s throwing a massive tantrum.
I bet your boys having an awesome time, though I also bet he’s missing you too 🙂
Also, I love the word ‘discombobulated’. So lovely to say.
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He did have a fab time, it must be said!
LearnerMother recently posted…Silent Sunday 30.03.14
It’s a great word, though it has me feeling sad! My daughter starts school in Sep, and she was definitely only born last weekend! So yes, I think like you do and I want to grab hold of these moments. I do hope your son is having a fab time 🙂 Thanks for sharing with #WotW
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You see? there’s something wrong with time, isn’t there!
LearnerMother recently posted…Silent Sunday 30.03.14
I totally get where youre coming from, i’m kind of already dreading my eldest going next year! Think its when they start school it starts whizzing past!
I know – once the year is divided into terms it just starts to race 🙁
LearnerMother recently posted…Silent Sunday 30.03.14
That is a great word! I can sympathize with how you are feeling. It is so scary how quick they grow. I can’t believe that my oldest is 10 this year 🙁 hope you have a good weekend when you’re all back together x #blogclub
He had a great time, and we had a lovely weekend being back to normal (i.e. lots of squabbles!!)
LearnerMother recently posted…Silent Sunday 30.03.14
My sister in law is about to go through this this summer with her nine year old son and know she feels weird about it too Michelle. Discombobulated is one of my favourite words and I once convinced the powers that be at work (police) to use it as a month’s password (protected police information). I have never heard so much of a backlash!! Its a good job I wasn’t in charge of naming Operations – can you imagine Operation Discombobulation?! But the whole feeling of time flying with the ankle biters… yes definitely – my eldest also starts school this September and it will be the end of an era. X #WotW
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Ha! Operation Discombobulation is a bit of a mouthful, perhaps you should have persuaded them to go for operation flump instead!! Hope you have a brilliant few months before school starts 🙂
LearnerMother recently posted…Silent Sunday 30.03.14
I need to use the word discombobulated more! My six year old son went away to a wedding a few months ago (page boy) with my husband. I had an extra special weekend just with my daughter but I definitely was discombobulated then too! #wotw
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That’s the flip side I guess, more time with the others, which I think they really enjoyed 🙂
LearnerMother recently posted…Silent Sunday 30.03.14
they are growing up fast and they live the nest and you miss them … this is the cycle and I am scared of it already.
#wotw
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We need to remind ourselves to enjoy every minute 🙂
I haven’t had too many of these moments yet (mine are 4 and 2), but I suspect they’ll be coming thick and fast in the all-too-soon future. I think that’s partly why I started my blog – to try and hang onto that feeling of having a brood around me. Great post, and fantastic use of the word discombobulated!
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This is why I love your ‘Round of claws’ feature so much – a great way to remember all those moments that disappear otherwise!
LearnerMother recently posted…Silent Sunday 30.03.14
As much as I love the word – so onomatopoeic and delicious on the tongue, I am sorry you are feeling that way. Mine are 11 and 14 and I already feel like I’m losing them to adulthood. Where does the time go?
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It just comes so quick Vicky! I honestly don’t understand where the time disappears to!
LearnerMother recently posted…Silent Sunday 30.03.14
Know how you feel – my eldest (just 9) was away at a Brownie adventure weekend this weekend and although during the day it was, dare I say, quite nice just having the one child, at night it felt odd and slightly wrong that she wasn’t there. This, even though they have both stayed away for a whole week at their grandparents but that was different I guess!
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Isn’t that odd – I had exactly the same thoughts, as mine stay at grandparents singly or together on occasion, and it doesn’t feel quite as weird knowing they are with people who know them, does it?
LearnerMother recently posted…Silent Sunday 30.03.14
I know how you feel , some of mine go to stay with thier dad in the summer and at christmas and the house just doesnt feel right when they are away
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I remember you posting about this last Summer Grethe. As much as they drive us nuts, they leave a big hole when they’re not there!
LearnerMother recently posted…Silent Sunday 30.03.14
Awesome word, I love it! On a more serious note, my two are 19 and 13 now and I feel the same, trust me you will bilk and they will be 18 and you will have the same ‘how did that happen’ feelings. Enjoy them while you can 🙂
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I’ve felt this way many times, too. I think part of it is feeling the loss of being needed in that moment, too. It’s almost surprising that they can be out in the world doing fine when just “yesterday” they needed us so much.
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